Relationships

Ok so i was taking a look at my schedule the past week. Thursday i went to Refuge with her, Friday we went to sweeny todd, Saturday we had the thing at my former directors house, and this afternoon, because both our rides would be staying afterwards we went to church together at the college church. Its almost as if a higher power is pushing the two of us together. Problem is which higher power? Thats go me scarred in a mildly academic sort of way. This relationship could mean the difference between me going elsewhere or staying. Hmmm...need to pray.

Well ladies and gents the rest of the story

I may be hooked, or if i'm not, i soon will be. I'm not sure. Not sure if i want to be, not sure if i can be, not sure about much of anything. she's a nice girl. But the unknowns are realy getting to me. I'm a missions major. She's not. She lives in California, what happens in the summer? I cant afford to date right now, at least not in the traditional sense. Not sure what to do. Realy starting to bug me. I like her, a lot. Time brent, you have it. You have a whole year. Maybe four years hear, no need to rush anything. Breath take your time.

Smashing success

Cant say i realy got any deets on the girl ( thats details for the uninitiated) but we had fun and it was a good low key event. We watched a boring episode of CSI then we headed out in the middle ( it was realy boring ) and headed back to the dorms. Not exactly the most gripping of events but i think we're both more comfortable with each other now, she may not be as enthused with the Brent as she once was ( i didnt use any of the priviledges one has on stage as someone elses husband offstage), but thats ok. It was fun just being social, and i had fun despite the boringness of it all. tommorow should be interesting.

Ok here i go, saints preserve me

I was invited to go to this devotional thing we have in the forum. This is cool, i'd been missing my normal devo because of play practice. Problem is is that said invitation was given by mrs. s. Problem number two is that this is more or less a realy great opertunity to get to know her, in a mildly spiritual manner. Its not exactly church, but close. It would be realy great for whatever budding ( and right now i'm speaking in the strictist terms of friendship) relationship we may develop. Problem three tommorow i'm going to see sweeney todd with the theater nerds. She's going to. Ok so we ( maybe) spending tommorow night in each others company. I'd like to get a mildy spiritual setting in before i go for the strictly fun. This could be dangerous, but so be it. If only there was saint for stupid people.

My blog may no longer be secure from the outside world

So rage has this theory about girls ( check out the coments below). He takes coments and links it to his facebook acount. This doesnt mean that they can get at my blog. Wouldnt be all that hard for her ( her here being Mrs. S)to go to his page then come here. I may be royaly screwed, or just have some serious patching up to do ( he may have also made her mad, which doesnt bug me so much, in fact it may not bug me at all). I like her, but i'd realy like to get to know her. some people dont talk about themselves very much. Hmmm...well feeling hungery and in need of a shower.

Several Dilemas for y'all to ponder

You know its going to be a good post when i use the word dillema ( and alternate spelling). If only i knew what that word meant...Well here they are in there shining glory. Now some of you out there may have be or have been freshman girls. So i have a hypothetical situation to put to you . Need some advice. Ok so up to this play the girls i met, you could converse with ( the guru) or insult ( Martha) without ever worring about anything beyond that. Here is the problem Mrs. S and i have had several conversations. And getting inteligent conversation out of her is like ummm....ummm.... drawing blood with fishhooks. Granted this may be some sort of backlash from the fact that the first month or so of my former romantic relationship, if PR got more than a monosylibic anser out of me she was lucky. This whole thing feels very highschool. Poking? it was funny the first time, maybe the second time, but it got old say after the fiftyth time. I mean is this just normal freshman girl, i cant beleave i'm in college? Its getting old, i barely now her and it seems we spend an inordinate amount of the very little time we spend together flirting like highschoolers, try anything else and conversation shuts down. Perhaps Mrs. S you and i may not be made for each other. hmmm....thoughts?
Ok i had a second dilema. Oh yes now i remember. Now the guru is on facebook. I'm on facebook. Do i invite the guru to be a friend? Hmmm...here are my musings. First i never talk to the guru seems kind of lame to invite her to be a friend when i never talk to her. Granted just about every body has a bazzillion people on thier friends list, but she also seems to be like the type that doesnt do the whole only online relationship thing. I would have moral qualms insinutating myself into the email comunity of someone who doesnt particualary like that sort of thing. Well have other stuff to do. Not realy. Just no more dilemas.

Homecoming

This is the first time Brent shall be actualy voting. Not of course for any off the guys becuase i dont know any of them, but i know a couple of the girls ( notably Mrs. Standfield, hot backstage make up chick, and a girl from the last play who's charecter i cant remeber). Kind of excited. Havent ever made my voice heard before and all that ( or it could be my large cappucino that i'm drinking).Well i have spanish ( or lame games) to go do... Oh hey, i'm going to see Sweeney Todd with Alpha Psi Omega. Ok so they are theater geeks, but the play looks interesting ( its a dark comedy about a demon Barber that kills people and his grilfriend bakes them in pies). Want to see a real play anyway. should give me some tips for my own acting.

Worlds shortest practtice

Worlds most inexperienced director. So she's a senoir, and probably hasnt done this before. Thats ok, still it would be nice to have a more experienced director. Hopefullly she'll get better. Right now we're in the chorography part of the play ( which doesnt especialy make sense cause we dont have props yet). That is entrances, exits all that stuff. Guess its alittle differnt from the secret garden becuase we have more people on stage. Not so happy with the fluidity of the practices though, but we have to have the kids out of there by sevenish so we have to skip to the scenes there in. Have this charecter thing i have to do ( what does our charecter like and all that) not so pleased. I have a couple charecters, and i sort of got them figured out, once I have the lines memorized i'll do all that. Supose its more text book and all that, important stuff for me to learn, but not sure i like it.

Just got done writting a book reveiw

My teacher isnt going to like it. well, not to be mean, screw him! He's a winer, and a bitter winer at that. A man who prides himself on thinking outside of the box, except for the fact that he doesnt actualy think outside the box, just parrot what a lot of seminary types write in books. The man needs to get his head out of his books ( or his butt) get off his butt, and relise to normal people he's talking French. Here's some weird teacher-isms for your afternoon enjoyment: lived christian experience, or if you prefer lived christian experience of christian spirituality. He actualy gave us a handout to read to explain what lived christian experience is, but needless to say i'm still confused. Well have some reading to do for the aforesaid class so must go do that ( eat and get money as well).
PS Any one know what a rule of life is?

Betting

Ok so Rage says he owes me five bucks. I'm like, what for? then my sister makes the coment that i bet five bucks that she'd be dating someone ( paraphrase she read rages coment on facebook). So i made a bet did i? personaly i'd forgotten all about it. But, ladies and gentlemen ( not sure there are any girls that read this blog besides mel and maybe her roomie) five bucks is five bucks. Tell me, my wise friends, would you consider me a cruel and heartless person if i said i have varoius amounts waggered on the lenght persons i know maraiges will last? Is this bad? Personaly it cracks me up. Not that i can do anything to win my money, so i dont think its that bad. No doubt a sign of the times. Granted if both me and Rage are wrong there is absolutly no financel loss to either party. How about life spans? Like famous figures? Old famous figures? Hmmm...is definatly a moral conundrum.

The second podcast

sucked. the third one will be out friday ( its much better). Its rather long, listening to it right now, and the beganing isnt bad. But its long. Go to this link listen to as much as you can stand and make some coments ( need sugestions realy badly).
http://brothersmerrill.ebrandon.net/

My posting habbits

Generaly i post quite a bit. that is an understatement. However there is patern. someweeks i will post every 6 seconds and some weeks if you get two posts out of me a day your lucky. Is the love afair over? What love afair? Unless you are refering to the fact that i told you i had a crush on the girl playing Mrs. S, i'm not sure if i can help you. Do i have a crush on her anymore? No, perhaps not. Havent realy thought on it all that much. Crush's come and go with such frequency i generaly dont do much about them, in fact you could say they amuse me. The human heart is at best a fickle beast. But i would stress that this was never ( to my knowledge) a two person thing. It was just me. Being the smart ( devilishly handsome, and uber nice as well) person i am i did nothing relizing said affections could jepordize the whole production. How? Like what if we broke up in the middle of the thing? We'd still have to go to practice together and that might be unpleasent to say the least. Well have some other emails to read ( and write).

My breakfast

So Martha ( the person who played her) hadnt slept all night ( how can you stay up all night talking online?) and so she was in a goofy loud mood ( how this varies from normal is yet to be determined). So she calls the brent over to her table and we hold a mildly random and weird conversation untill the worst freshman guy ever, joins us. Loud obnoxious and weird beyond all measure. Not to say his type wasnt expected but still dont like him. Wasnt as bad as it could have been. sometimes ( rather randomly) i enjoy company when i eat. It was good to see Martha again. We had a lot of fun with the play, and i think if there were two charecters/people ( in acting some times its hard to tell the difernce) that got close it was us ( in a friendship sort of way). Miss that sometimes. While this present play cast may be more normal, not sure they have the goofyness its takes to leave everything on the stage as it were. Random sidenote have dry skin ( windy oklahoma doesnt help) so am wearing shaving balm stuff evan when i didnt shave ( the roomie and mel will be horrified).

Does this make any sense to y'all?

The world _ especially the Western United States, the Mediterranean region and Brazil _ will likely suffer more extended droughts, heavy rainfalls and longer heat waves over the next century because of global warming, a new study forecasts.

Seems mildly contradictory to me. Heaveir rain falls, but more drought? somthin's not conecting here...Personaly, i'm scared of climate change. Think we need to be more green just becuase i think its a good idea. Seems to me that twenty or thirty years of research of actualy noting down what the temperature is, cant tell if the climate is actualy changing. Who nows is may be natural. ( like the ice ages and all that). seems like a lot of the stuff about climate change is a bunch of bull envented to get me to think the way this or that advocate/wacko/congress person wants me to, not atual science.

Facebook : my love hate relatioship

So i was doing some spanish ( no more rush to finsih half of the assignment before the test for me). Got bored ( realy? who'd a thunk it?). found some people on facebook. Kinda cool kinda not. I feel mildy stockerish looking up people ( hold on a minute going to check out some people who were in the secret garden) i barely know. very. perhaps we shant do that again. i'd add them to my friends list, but i dont ever speak to them ( generaly they speak to me, and its hi, then we pass going our seperate directions). Yet i it would realy give me an ego spike if i had like twenty bazillion people on my friends list. Perhaps not. Perhaps i shall go add a link to monster energy. Perhaps i shall go buy some more keebler elfin cracker things ( realy their just animal crakers shapped like elves).

Oc soccer sucks almost as bad as my people skills

So the guru is at the game. It takes me a few minutes to figure out that this blue clad figure is her. She nottices, i turn like a snake bitten brent. And she leaves. Once again my wonderfull people skills shine through.
Ok now for a rant. We cant pass, we cant trap, and we sure as heck cant shoot ( oh and we suck at defense to). It might have been the cold, i notticed none of the players were even wearing under armor, what they hey? So their from oklahoma, but check the weather dudes, at least wear a long sleaved t-shirt. I could have played a better game. They passed backwards! Instead of trapping they just sort of one tuched it...a nice pass to the other team. If we'd played solid soccer instead of this crap it wouldnt have taken until the last four minutes for us to be winning solidly. And then on defence , ok so the bad guy has the ball, you keep between him and the goal! Is that so hard. Goalie, that box is your little castle, no one comes in their with the ball and leaves walking ( unless he just sort of lets you have the ball then he lives not otherwise). Ok on to the offense. Trap, pass, trap, pass. And the good Lord gave you mouths, talk. talk.talk. Its important. You talk or you lose. I spent a year starting on the bench ( i went everywere) becuase i talked, i told the guy on the field who he had open and if a man was coming on. I was like a spotter in a nascar game. we took second place that year. thou must talk.

Kudos to the athletic chicks

Normally i am not such a big fan of the athletic wear. It does little or nothing to flatter the female figure. However, right now i am tired. Its cold ( relitivily). I am looking like a schlub. At these times i apreciate my fellow schlubs. People who are spiffed up ( like i was yesterday) deserve a kick in the mouth. Its friday, your in college, its almost as bad as being preppy on mondays. Well have some stupid games to play.

first practice is over

went well. These guys are much more normal than the last bunch. Did pretty well. Mrs. stanfield isnt as hot as one would like, but still atractive. Think i may have a crush ( thankfully i'm realy good at hidding these, i mean realy good, so good you'd never find out if i wasnt telling you). Well wait a week and things will be back to normal ( which is good long term wise all things considered, and there definatly are some considerations, but this is a good time for me to stop typing in parenthesis) . Luckily we wont have practice together for a while ( avoid her? jurys still out, havent seen her so far so shant be hard if i want to) well have some games to play.

First practice

Am curently instaled by one of the few plug ins so my laptop can charge, awaiting the faitfull 6 ocklock hour. six is a little early i must admit for practice, unless we get out earlyier which i would be all about, getting out at 9 would be awsome. Mrs. Stanfield is here early, good, means she's excited and or nervous, havent talked to the dame yet, should be an interesting experience. This practice should just be a read through, so should end quickly which would make me a very happy brent. well i'm bored going to go play an online game that requires no time comitment or brain power.

Relationships: a discusion with Brent

Ok so we were in my intro to ministry class and we were doing this examen thing ( part of being a hip preacher is to use big words no one knows what they mean) and as part of that we were asked if we had a "soul friend" . our hot missionary chick said that it was her boyfriend and that they were best friends first. made me wax nostalgic. Looking back on my one romantic relationship, i can now say that that was the time i miss the most. Back, way back when we were just friends life was so much easier ( we're sort of friends right now, granted i dont think either of us would go out of our way to ever see each other again). I miss that. I need some chum here at oc. I know some folks, have a couple friends, know someone who would work, maybe. Hmmm... Needed, moderatly atractive female. Interested in friendship that allows me to make fun of said person ( and vice versa), be moderatly open with spiritualy. Granted i know this guy that i may email and form some sort of guy group spiritual thing. If all else fails theres nath... nope, no there isnt (not a chance in a million years).